Therefore do not worry

 As some of you may know I am applying for an internship with Campus Crusade for Christ and the waiting is killing me. As each week goes by I become more and more impatient on what the Lord has for my life. Does he want me there or does he want me here. The more I keep asking myself this the more as I realize that I am trying to play God and that I am kicking him to the curb when I need him the most.

The more options that come my way the less that I depend on God and what he wants me to do with my life after I graduate.

I have noticed this over the past 4yrs that I have been a Christian that when I have various options in my path the first person I turn to for answers is ME not HIM. Now I am not saying that I don't pray about my life after I graduate but its more of a reflex than me actively seeking out what the Lord wants me to do. I find that the  more I pray out of habit rather than praying because I want to hear his voice and his direction. I don't grow any I stay in the same place and no fruit comes from this.

I find that when I make myself God I worry way to much. I am constantly second guessing myself and back tracking to make sure that everything follows up with my will and that it all looks good to ME, instead of trusting in him and making sure that MY life matches up with HIS will for my life.

My life should look more and more like his everyday instead of looking more and more like what I want.

In this time of waiting and searching for answers I need to humble myself and and realize that 1) I am not GOD 2) All Power and Glory belong to him and 3) His WILL is perfect for my life.

Now that these things are starting to sink in life gets a little easier and when I cast my burdens upon the Lord and know that he is God almighty and that he will make straight my path, I see that there is no need to really worry about anything. He is there with me and with you guiding our paths and making them straight as long as we lean on him for understanding.

Trust in the Lord with all your heart,
    and do not lean on your own understanding.
⁶ In all your ways acknowledge him,
    and he will make straight your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6


Cast your burden on the Lord,
    and he will sustain you;
he will never permit
    the righteous to be moved. Pslam 55:22


 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34 


Be blessed,
Crivers